10 days...

OK, so I've found my dress for my 10 year reunion.  It was a great deal, and I will definitely be able to wear it again.  Whew, that's over with!

I spent about 3 hours at the spa yesterday, had my hair colored with INOA at Amiche Capelli.  I'm totally hooked on this product now; makes my hair feel thicker, softer, and the color is AMAZING!

So now my final dilemma would be my stress induced acne.  I met with Kelley from Clinage recently and she gave me a few products to try out.  I've tried just about EVERYTHING over the last 2 years, but I was excited to try this.  It's a 20 year old formula created by a dermatologist not too far from where I live.  After only a few days of using it, I can already see improvements!

The last product I'd used, Proactive, burned my skin.  I looked like I had spent an entire day outside w/o any shade or sunscreen.  I was lobster red and peeling.  I didn't leave the house for days...  Now, the redness is gone, and my acne is going away.  YAY!

OK, so all the vain things are taken care of... it's getting close for me to finally decide if I'm going to actually go.  As I look through the guest list on Facebook, most of the people I want to see are in the "Maybe" section.  Part of me wants to host my own reunion, with just the people I want to see... but add that to my already crowded plate?

Am I the only one who is freaking out about this?  My husband didn't get nervous or anything at his 10 year reunion, but that's because we really didn't go until it was over and everyone was drunk... (OK, note to anyone planning a reunion: Pick a date far in advance, 6 months isn't enough, and if 3 SEPARATE PEOPLE tell you that they're getting married that day, find another night).

So I'm looking for some help here; if I'm this nervous about it should I even go?

Preparing for my 10 Year Reunion: T-Minus 14 days!

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I have been FREAKING OUT about this for MONTHS!  It's the stupidest thing to be getting so worked up about with everything else going on in my life.  But I have been, and it's just about here...


So I've been trying to slim/trim down.  I've lost a bit of weight, toned up, and people have noticed, so that's a good thing.  Now I need to find THE DRESS.  This has been a pain!  I've gone to a few dress shops in the area, and I've found that they're just not me.  Well, I did find one that I loved - but OMG it was out of my budget... I'm looking for something similar.  My problem is, even though I'm 28 now, and have an amazing size 2 body (I've worked hard for this, so yes I'll boast about it for a second before the insecurities return).  But my personality does not match the clothes that are marketing for my demographic, and budget.  I want to appear classy and sophisticated, modest but feminine.  I'm a married mother of three - I'm not looking for a date.

So I've found a few that I like online, my favorite retailer, 15dollarstore.com.  I've bought many items there, and it's great because it fits in my tight budget, but I can get new outfits for various occasions and events.  The hardest part about buying online is trying to picture it on.  We can upload our faces to buy glasses online, why can't we upload our measurements or a picture and try dresses 'on' online?  Someone should get on that right now. (you see it here, August 23, 12:11am EST this was written - it's my idea!)

I never really liked shopping - it's always been such a chore for me.  I never really went shopping for clothes with my friends, it just wasn't important to me then, and still really isn't now.  However, because I'm the face for my business, I need to be presentable.  Even a big smile on my face and joy in my voice isn't going to hide the fact that I don't have clothes that fit me they way they should.

A lot of it stems back to school.  My mom, bless her, hid my frail body in clothes that were always WAY to big for me.  I'd become anorexic for a while, thinking if I lost weight she'd buy me medium size tops instead of larges.  All these years later, I still have those shirts.  And the only times they ever "fit" me were when I was 9 months pregnant.

I hate clothes.  I hate that I'm only 5'4" and every time I find a dress or skirt or pants that I like, it's either too long or too short.  Goodness what's the deal with skirts/dresses that BARELY go past your bottom?  and they not even wearing leggings or shorts or something with it - really, eww.

And why does everything have to be super low cut?  I mean, really?  I know they say if you've got it flaunt it - but I don't have anything to flaunt, and I really don't want to see you flaunt it.  Respect others, and respect yourself: Please cover them up!

So I guess I'll go back to my online shopping - I think I've got it down to four, and I'll probably buy two...

Why does it have to be so freaking hard?

When It Comes To This - DO NOT Mess With Me

I hate bullies, 'mean girls', cliques and all that punk kid stupidity.  I don't like to be negative, it doesn't get anyone anywhere, but this is one thing that I just WILL NOT tolerate.

I recently posted on my Facebook profile that I'm not a good person to piss off… if I offended anyone, I apologize.  But when a friend jokingly said "good to know", I elaborated a bit.  I felt the urge to continue on.

While out for a walk with my family, some High School students were out selling something in support of their sports team.  The last few years, we've opted to not purchase anything from this team in support of another that I'm more passionate about.  However last year, the team members didn't like that myself and a few neighbors did not buy anything from them and they chose to vandalize our houses and cars.  

So after we catch you doing that to us last year, do you really think I'm going to by something from you this year?  And you think that when I tell you "no not right now" it's appropriate to use very foul language around me and my 3 small children?  I think not.  

I'm a mom, before anything else, I am a mom.  And I love my community and want to support my local athletic teams.  But if you are going to write foul words on our cars and vandalize our yards and then call my neighbors and I a B---- in front of our kids - you've got another thing coming!

I've expressed my distaste for anything of this nature to my kids.  Joking with a neighbor I swore I'd lock my kid in their room every night until they moved out if I ever caught them TPing someone's house.  My husband use to think it was funny until it happened to us and he was the one who had to clean it all up.

I don't know why people think it's ok or funny.  I don't understand why some parents encourage and even drive the getaway car.  I've work VERY hard to buy a house and a car and to have you write dirty words on it and TP my house and to shove things into my mailbox... just because I didn't buy your $10 booster card?

Kids today just don't seem to have any respect for things or people.  Wait until you get into the 'real world'.  When you have worked your but off to buy a house that's just right for your family, and you get the first brand new car you've ever had... Then tell me how it feels to have to wash every foul word in the dictionary off your car and driveway before your 6 year old starts sounding them out...

So again, if I offended anyone by saying "don't piss me off" - unless you were planning on vandalizing my house, we're good. But again, I'm sorry if I offended you.